Currently Step Studying

I guess it's been a while since I've written a blog post. This one is about nothing in particular, except HAHA wait--studying for Step 1! For those who can't be bothered to click random links, it's the first exam in our 3-part medical licensing exam (spread over some years). Some words that have been said about it:

"I think we might all cry after." - S, a 210-lb macho man

"Everyone feels like they've failed right after. But don't worry, you won't be that one person. Probably." - a 5th year MD/PhD tutor

"I don't want to do anything or see anyone." -everyone studying for step 

So I've gone off The Facebook, so I'm not entirely sure what's going on in the outside world except for what Buzzfeed and NBC news tell me (obviously one source is for sanity purposes).

I just know that I'm almost at the halfway point of studying. I've so far completed (skip over if you don't care/don't want to know):

-1.3x Uworld Qbank (2,240 questions) 1.6 as of today!
-2x First Aid
-1x Pathoma
-Glances of BRS anatomy/physiology
-2 NBME exams @ $60 each (will do two more)
-1 Uworld Assessment (will do one more)

My schedule (I won't share the actual hour-by-hour breakdown with you, that would just be crazy):
-Wake up, study
-Lunch, study
-Study, study
-Study

I've been trying to eat, but honestly I've not been hungry. Must be the elevated sense of stress. Meh.

Some things I'm doing to keep sane:

-I baked for like three days after my final on May 11th, and then declared that I would never bake again in my life (probably not true).
-Running with my bros. They are four guys that are some of my best buds here at school. They're (mostly) nice about me being slow. Me: "Just....go! Leave meeeeee *gasping for air* All the guys: "NO!" 
-I still go to High Intensity Training, going to up it to twice a week soon. Maybe.
-I still go to church every Sunday.
-I water my roommate's basil plant every morning and give it regular trims.  I bet my across-the-street neighbors think I'm crazy because I can be seen blinds up, wearing just a long T-shirt, holding a mug of coffee, and staring dreamily at a pot of basil.
-I browse through a lot of Mark Bustos's Instagram pictures because they remind me that good deeds make the world go round. And that someday I might have the influence to actually do good in the world.