My love life...med school edition

Oh hay. My friend J suggested I blog about my love life. The short story is, my love life is nonexistent. The end. Wasn't that a good story?


The long story is, I just don't feel like dating. I don't feel like I'm in a position to be anything for anyone at this season of my life.

I've used the "I'm just not interested in anything right now, I don't want to waste your time," line three (countless if you include bar encounters....but we won't) times this semester, with my latest time being today. Every time I sense that a guy wants something more than friendship, my brain goes on high alert and initiates Shut Down Mode. I try to be direct as possible, without making the person feel silly or unwanted. And every time, the guy tells me that he appreciates me being upfront. So I guess you could say that I am actively resisting being pursued. Running away, even.

It's a selfish, self-defense mechanism. I've always been goal-oriented. In this season of my life, my goal is to do well in medical school in order to obtain a good residency in order to really begin my life. Yes, I see major flaws in that logic, but that's what I'm going with at the moment. Thus, my time is spent mostly on studying with a small sliver of the pie going to socializing with friends. I honestly don't feel like I have enough time in a day to do anything more.


When I pose the issue of unwanted attention from men, here are some responses I've gotten from my guy friends:

"You are quite the hot topic apparently."
"Might as well utilize your army. I want free drinks!" 
"Come on it has to be a little flattering."
"This fella must have a crush and a half." (LOL Midwesterners)
"What is your secret, Ms. Chen, making all these boys fall hard?" 

When I pose the issue of unwanted attention from men, here are some responses I've gotten from my girl friends:

"You don't want drama...but drama just finds you!"
"That's an awkward situation to be in."
"What have you done to get this boy so interested?"
"He loves the chase."
"You need to be selfish right now." 
"Good for you, being direct."
"LOL."

Take from it what you will, but those were real quotes from my classmates. Yes, I did spend ten minutes looking through my texts.

Anyways, there seems to be an overlapping concept of me doing something to get boys interested. I disagree, but then again, I'm biased and probably unaware of subconscious signals I give off. My friend N over the weekend told me that guys find girls who are "one of the guys" attractive, which I guess explains last semester pretty well. But anyways, I don't know if I'm doing anything, except being me. Maybe guys find my brutal honesty (or maybe my gross eating habits? addiction to chapstick?) attractive, because as of finishing writing this post, I just received a text from a Boy whom I recently gently let down....

The bestie once told me that she's going to have a lot of stories to tell at my future wedding. Yeeeah. =/