For closure

The days leading up to and after my MCAT were almost identical: some rest, some unrest, and very poor sleep.

The main reason why taking the MCAT was so difficult wasn't that it crammed 8 semesters of science into one test; it was that there is no rest or respite from serious studying. You know the feeling of relief and freedom after having taken a midterm? The one that allows you to go to go numb in front of the TV and gobble up all of the episodes of shows that you had deprived yourself of in the last week? The one that allows you to slack off completely until you have to study for the next midterm? There was none of that for me. Just prolonged studying on the faith that it will pay off eventually. If I met my daily goal of a certain number of practice problems, I would either do more, or allow myself to go to bed early. I'd never studied so much or so long for a single test before, in my life. It sounds freakish and unnatural, but this is also what D did to study for his MCAT. We were able to support each other in that way--always considerate of self-imposed time constraints, never leading the other to lose sight of the goal.

I'm now awaiting my scores. I keep reeling back to the last screen, where it asks you whether or not you want the test scored or voided. I'm 99% sure that I clicked "score." I even remember double-checking by clicking "back." But the experience is but a hazy memory, and because memory fails us so often, there is a small fear in my mind that on February 28th, the screen will be blank because of the mistake of my shaking fingers.

Okay, enough of that. On to happier things.

I've been sleeping better these last days. It's as if the MCAT toxins are leaching out of my body and allowing me some peace.

Or maybe that's just the bikram yoga talking. A word on that: dude. It's the sweatiest experience I've ever had, and I used to go to group cycling at the RSF. Imagine straining to touch your forehead to your knee in a sauna for 90 minutes, and that's basically what bikram was. That being said, does anyone want to come with me? They give you this "1 Free Class" card....No? It's actually more fun than I just described, I promise! Sometimes your foot slips off of the sweat of your leg, and hilarity ensues. Okay well...think about it and let me know. Different parts of my body hurt after each session; the first day was my neck, the second, my lower back and my head (as in, a headache). I look at the bikram experts at the front of the room, with their clean lines and head-to-foot flexibility, and wonder if I even want to go back tomorrow.